Escorted by police and medical staff I didn’t notice the very secure door until it shut and was locked behind us.
My first thought was – I’m safe.
Not everybody’s first response to being locked in, I’m sure.
I didn’t even register the thought immediately – until I noticed the relief that followed.
Safe from everyone that knew me and from myself.
I hadn’t slept for months and months. Here in hospital staff came into the room all night long to check I was alright…. came with torches, open and closed doors….. and I slept through it all because I felt safe.
The big realisation – I had never really felt safe before.